i said i was commitment phobic din i?
just remembered a part of a convo i once had with dar. cant really rememeber how we started talking about this, but the important part was something like...
her: huh he not scared he become like hl also ah?
and i was like...yeah...how do i know it wont happen again? i cant even trust myself now. i thought i was the only one who thought this way but apparently dar thinks this way too...abit creepy to hear my own dark thoughts echoed by someone else. =/
do i really know u very well? come to think of it, do u know me very well? just thought of an interesting analogy suddenly. imagine that relationships are like buying something. u go somewhere, perhaps already with some idea of what design u want to find. but if u find one that u like and the price is within ur budget, u would still buy it even if it's different from what u initially thought u wanted. but the difference is that things like electronics come with warranty. u can exchange for a new one or fix it for free within the warranty period. but relationships dun. u cant break up and then use ur warranty card to exchange for a new one cos it wont be the same. u also wont get back the feelings/efforts u have put in.
i know we said to experiment and not contact for one week, but i think the answer wont be what u want. i just hope u wont be too disappointed after one week...
*thisismymagicaltale*