Sunday, December 28, 2008
this is going to be a long entry...got this quiz from someone's blog!! xD
1. Do you have a crush?
atm yes...trying to cure myself of it though. =x crushes are not healthy...
2. (For Males) Would you fall in love with a girl that is way older than you? (For Females) Would you fall in love with a guy that is way younger than you?
i dun think age really matters since there are old guys with the mentality of 3-year-olds (YES BRO I'M TALKING ABOUT U!)
3. How long do you intend to spend your life with your lover?
obviously for as long as i can. -.-
4. If you have one billion dollars, what would you do?
use 1% of it to buy things i've always wanted and a house, half of it goes to charity (oh haha we all say this but whether we would really do it or not depends.) and save the rest.
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
considering i had experience in this years ago i'm hoping it doesnt happen again.
6. Which is more blessed, being love by someone or loving someone?
blessed? being loved i guess. but loving someone has it advantages too, except when u have to control ur longing to be with them.
7. What do you like the most?
what is a very broad definition u know...x.x i shall take it as "what would u want the most?", for that someone to be happy, with or without me. not that it makes much of a difference anyway~
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
distance myself till i can get rid of the feelings.
9. Is there anything that can make you extremely happy?
having a fairy tale ending come true.
10. What makes me sad?
1. seeing him
2. thinking of everything that happened in the past.
11. How would you see yourself in 10 Years time?
married with kids, preferably living in some ulu place LOL.
12. Who is currently important to you?
my friends (haha short and sweet answer) =x
13. What do you regard as the most important thing in your life?
happiness. as long as one can be happy no matter what it's also a kind of blessing.
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich. not that i dun want to be married or cant bear to be married and poor, but lack of money will definitely lead to unhappiness and maybe even divorce, so i dun want to wait for that to happen to me.
15. What is your favorite colour?
lol isnt it ovbious. -.-
16. If you're attached but someone else likes you and wants to be your boyfriend/girlfriend, what would you do?
that's his prob liao...haha if i'm attached my bf would obviously be of higher importance than some other guy what...x.x
17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible the thing someone had done?
really depends bah. as long as not something i really hate (making use of me to hurt someone else etc) i think i can forgive and eventually forget (LOL who says stm isnt useful??)
18. What do you want to tell the person you like?
be happy, okay? =)
19. if u had a choice between boyfriend/girlfriend and best friend, which would you choose?
i think i would just be the best friend who's always by his side, afterall, everyone knows that friendship last longer than relationships.
20. what would you do if your boyfriend/girlfriend betray you?
run away and hide till the pain is not so obvious anymore.
who to tag who to tag~
1. xin dar! she loves quizzes like me!! xD
the rest can just volunteer urselves. =x
anyway, let's start my day from sat onwards.
woke up super early to meet kint and jojo at cck arcade. SURPRISINGLY kint was early!! hohoho =x after playing 1 round i went to je to meet sis for badminton. I DEPROVE ALOT LIAO! sobs x.x too bad loh i'm used to the squash way of holding the racquet and hitting liao...i keep waiting for the shuttle-cock to bounce first before hitting. x.x
after that was supposed to go home to bath first then meet hl for movie. but i ended up being too tired and sleeping till 730+! =x then was playing mj with ma bro and his gf later when hl suddenly told me he met celine they all at cck arcade~ =O lol so qiao sia. so i missed the movie again...x.x
then finally this morning i went to wm at the ungodly hour of 10am to watch BOLT! and finally i got to watch it. -.- it's a good day to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! LOL. xD then went shopping with ma at jp for new year things ie bag shoes clothes. I HATE SHOPPING! TT but not bad lah due to my determination to allocate only one day for shopping i managed to get everything i need for cny! muahahahahaha =D
i bought a tube dress which was the last in stock and while i was paying for me i heard a guy asking for it and the salesgirl told him that i got the last one. =x i think he wanted to buy it for his gf...wanted to offer it to him (cos thoughtful guys are really rare nowadays!) but he ran away too fast~x.x
Friday, December 26, 2008
started my christmas eve quite normally...then went to meet hl at cck before going to watch BOLT at the cathay at 520...in the end we were both late but i insisted on playing one game of piu (oops~ =x) and i met xin dar and jojo! lol so qiao~hl wanted to redo his MIP card and i managed to psycho him to make a doraemon one LOL! xD anyway we cabbed to dhoby and despite this we were still late for the movie (and somemore i got damn car sick x.x) and missed 20mins of it liao! then we went to look at the available seats (i was actually quite happy at first to see that it wasnt sold out...) and then we discovered that the only seats available were those in the first 2 rows. -.-
so we went over to plaza sing...then realise there isnt any bolt showings there! =O so we went to xin wang hong kong cafe (which sis intro-ed me to) which has cheap and quite delicious food. hohoho. then was supposed to go over to his house for another of those anime marathon sessions~but somehow ended up coming to mine to play mj and cluedo. =x at this point i realise it sounds quite scandalous (dek I CAN SEE U SNIGGERING like today at the arcade...-.-) so i think i shall mention that no we're just friends...and i think i'm going to remain single in the foreseeable future cos the one i want doesnt want me...D: (lol ce mai smirk). =x
by the time we finished playing it was around 1am...so he had to walk home. =x (but dun worry i know u can do it! xD) then kena pestered by ce to come online to discuss today's plans...meet at 11 at clementi for prata but all the while i was intending to pangseh them last min de but ce exposed me. x.x wanted to wake up around 930 cos i only slept around 4am, but in the end i sneezed so much that i woke up at 8am!!! x.x so i was damn bu gan yuan thus i slacked all the way till 930 then went to bath...and in the end i was late hohoho~
although ce and i was late but we were still the earliest...xin dar came out but forgot to bring her pressie so had to go back to get it...kint was the best...he told me he was still in bed sleeping and then 15mins later he suddenly appeared out of nowhere. -.- so we went to eat...and a supposedly funny incident happened (i dun think it was funny at all loh so dun know how someone can laugh till face red...-.-) after that we went to this place in orchard called ming arcade for ktv~i literally stoned there for 3hrs lol~but really mah i so shy de how to sing in front of so many ppl~ xD
after that walked to dhoby, played one round of piu then rushed to woodlands for buffet dinner liao...quite alot of food actually...wanted to try the fudge brownies but i got too full~~wanted to try the ice cream also de. D: then rushed back to dhoby to meet celine they all...then took train back to je...LOL basically today was an around-sg-in-one-day thing. x.x oh yeah forgot to mention the gift exchange... i got shan's cookies and xin dar got my pressie~ (hoho telepathy dar!! <333)>
i forgot where i heard this from, could have been from a tv show or something, but it says that if a guy has feelings for u, he would make it obvious to u...BUT i'm not feeling anything! haha so i guess that's my answer...=x
Monday, December 22, 2008
sis and her hubby came over to get their christmas pressies and play mj today, thus explains my last min dash to imm this afternoon (the good thing about living nearby). =x i cant wait to open my pressies! xD and bro just tried to tempt me by asking me "eh u want open the presents now mah?" x.x i have strong willpower!
the beautiful christmas tree which i carried home from imm~and the piles of presents under it! xD
pressies from sis and bro. i know what the silver thing is already...hurhurhur. =x
i cant wait to open pressies! really buy presents buy till broke sia. D:
i dun know why i'm so anti-social nowadays...
Sunday, December 21, 2008
went to stalk xin dar's blog and realise i still got one part of the quiz haven do...=x
1. What kind of boyfriend/Girlfriend do u like?
chemistry is the most important thing. =x
2. Do u feel safe with ur boyfriend/girlfriend?
dun have a bf. have lots of gf though. xD
3. How do u celebrate ur first month?
i just said i dun have any. o.o
4. When u see ur stead sick/injured, would u be there even if u're busy?
Yes.
5. When its ur 12th month and ur stead's having another relationship, what will u do?
kick him far far away~ =x
lol no lah. no point continuing.
6. What if u know ur ex is still loving u and she's single while u're attached?
there must be reasons why he's an ex.
7. You're single, attached or having a crush on someone?
single and desparately wishing i DUN have a crush on someone.
8. List out 3 love/sad songs.
teardrops on my guitar, 甜甜的 by jay and 說好的幸福呢
9. What would u do if u and ur stead quarreled?
leave me alone till i calm down.
10. Do u wish to know if somebody is having a crush on u?
curiousity killed the cat...yes.
11. What if u're single and somebody is having a crush on u?
only if that someone is my crush.
12. How do u feel when u're in love?
floating on clouds. xD
13. How many times did u have ur heart broken?
2-3 times perhaps.
14. If u and ur stead who would be the one apologising?
i dun apologise directly but i would do small small things to say i'm sorry. =x
15. Wad would u do if ur stead wants to break up?
no point holding on.
16. Did any of ur ex give u presents?
yes. they both did if i remember correctly.
17. When did u cry for someone u love?
i cant remember...
18. How many times did u break ur promise to ur stead?
i only make promises when i mean them so i wont break promises. =x
19. Do u really wish that ur relationship will last long?
...who goes into a relationship hoping that they will break soon? -.-
20. Choose 12ppl to do this quiz.
LOL whoever's bored enough to do this. =x
Friday, December 19, 2008
was saving up my blogpost to blog about yesterday de...but it was actually very uneventful. x.x specially went to cathay to buy the student price movie tickets but ended up watching the 7pm digital version with no student price. TT OH YEAH we watched it in the Grand Cathay (see the caps) and it just felt so~~~spacious. i can kick my legs without worrying about kicking the person in front.
the movie itself was...okay bah. was expecting some tragic, tear-triggering scenes or something. but some parts just make u cant help but laugh (LOL). as i was having flu (since when do i NOT have flu?), i tried to sniff *discreetly* so that ppl wont think i'm crying or something. then after the movie ce actually asked me if i cried during the sad scenes. i was like "what sad scenes?" ._. but i already tried to sniff discreetly liao hoh...x.x
then we went to piu and jubeat (actually we did this before the movie too). wanted to eat at astons but there was a loooooong queue both before and after the movie. =/ OH YEAH and i realised actually i went there before haha. my stm extended till i thought i went there with ce kint and xin before. but no it wasnt. i *sort of* remembered that i went there with sw nat and carmen lolz. =x
dun know why but just seem to be in a zibi mood nowadays...i pangseh-ed sw they all for the swatsd gathering till they say we might as well be called Snow White and the Six Dwarves! D: (nat even mentioned that the initials would still be the same). x.x then today i pangseh-ed ce kint xin and dek to rot at home. i'm really going to end up a loner if this carries on sia...nvm shall try and force myself out of the house. =)
oh yeah i feel like uploading pictures but how can i have anything to upload when i dun take pictures?? =x i think i just want to have the pictures without having to take them lol. TT
Monday, December 15, 2008
finished watching the anime midori no hibi yesterday...glad that they had a happy ending (it looked happy) and i think the other anime special a also nearing the end liao...the akira toudou and tadashi pairing super sweet~~xD
i went to stalk sharn at his blog and i found this quiz! so even though i'm not tagged i shall be BHB enough to 'steal' the quiz. =x yes i love quizzes!! xD
People who have been tagged must write their answer in their blog.
Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those that are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they are tagged by and cannot tag the person who they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending this to other people.
1. What have u been doing recently?
enjoying my hols! and having dreams about exams x.x
2. Do u ever turn ur cellphone off?
1. when i'm very emo
2. when i'm very very angry
3. when i press the wrong button. =x
3. What happened at 10am today?
i was still sleeping. O.O
4. When did you last cry?
cant really remember already...
5. Believe in fate/destiny?
yes.
6. What do u wan in ur life now?
peace i guess. and to be less numb.
7. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
i tend to think ALOT. TT just ask ce or anyone whom i've ever turned to for counselling. =x
8. Are you wearing anything borrowed from someone?
nope!
9. What was the last movie u caught?
i think it was Quarantine.
10. Does the person u like knows that u like him/her?
i hope not! =x
11. Who always make u laugh?
more like what bah? o.o
12. Do u speak languages other than english?
mandarin and attempting to learn japanese. =x
13. Favourite websites?
people's blogs (yay i love to stalk~~) and fan fics. xD
14. What are u doing tomorrow?
slack slack slack~
15. What do you think you are like?
O.O next~
16. Who will u choose to die with?
we live alone and die alone.
17. Where have u been today?
sleeping. =D
18. What game do u play often?
not limited to online games right...maple, audi, piu and jubeat!
19. Who are u missing right now?
*u must be crazy if u think i'm going to write it here when there are so many stalkers!*
20.If u have to choose between a friend and a lover, who will u choose?
neither. i hate choosing. x.x
21. What are u doing right now?
trying not to regret doing this quiz.
22. Which Primary School were u from?
FHPS. (does it matter? o.o)
23. Name 3 colours u like.
blue, white and pink
24. What emotion do u like to show?
no emotion. i'm numb remember? =x
25. What is life to u?
something to suffer through.
26. If u have something troubling u, what will u do?
hide in a corner till i get better.
27. Who did u last chat with on msn today?
my nai-ba whom i haven seen for a million years!! T.T
28. Who do u admire the most?
jay! xD
29. Which month are u born in?
may
30. How are u feeling right now?
full of regrets at starting this quiz. x.x
31. What is the time now?
1355
32. Your opinion on the person who tagged u.
nobody tagged me. i volunteered myself! =D
33. What colour do u like to dye ur hair?
i wanted red initially. then it became blue. and after i watched midori no hibi i want green! :D
34. Why are u doing this test?
moment of insanity.
35. What do u do when u're moody?
stone, read and listen to music.
36. At which stage do u wish to get married?
when i've found someone.
37. Who is closer to u?
closer as compared to? o.o
38. If today's the last day of your life, what will u do?
revisit all those places where i had good memories...alone.
39. Who is/are the people u trust the most?
those i've known for a long time.
40. Do u believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
i've seen it thrice! =D
41. If you had a dream come true, wad would it be?
lol...did nobody ever tell u? dreams never come true.
42. Wad is ur goal for this yr?
get good results. less emo-ing perhaps.
43. Do u believe in eternity love?
yes. but not everyone can find it and keep it though. so treasure what u have. =)
44. What feelings do u love the most?
the kind of happiness where u just feel giddy with it.
45. What feeling do u hate the most?
the feeling of helplessness.
46. Do u really think its global warming now?
singapore has always been warm~
47. Do u like doing quizzes?
yes! xD
48. Do u believe in gods?
nope.
49. Who cares for u the most?
who knows?
50. What do u think is the most important thing in ur life?
being happy.
51. What will u bring when u fight?
an army of fighters.
52. What have u regretted doing in ur entire life?
i never regret what i do.
53. What would u do if nobody cared for u any longer?
get used to it.
54. What will u do if ur boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed u?
slap and punch the bastard till his new gf cant recognise him! xD
...no lah just leave quietly loh what else can i say?
55. How do u feel now?
sian sian sian sian...
Sunday, December 14, 2008
woke up super early to meet sis at toa payoh today (okay lah not super early but i missed my doraemon!!) x.x was supposed to go k box there but then realised that toa payoh dun have kbox!! =O so cabbed to hougang (around the world in 80mins) and sang many emo songs. near the end we went crazy and decided to choose all jay's new songs just to see the mvs (i kid u not, those songs are un-singable.)
after that we went to a shop with ALOT of doraemon and hello kitty things!! and i actually found some doraemon things that i dun have! (u dun know how rare that is =x). those things included doraemon earphones (which sis bought for me already xD), doraemon mouse and a DORAEMON KEYBOARD!! like omg~~~~yes, this is a not-subtle-at-all hint for those who dun know what to buy for my christmas pressie. =D
then we cabbed to bishan sports hall where we had our table-tennis session. uh overall it was quite funny (aka damn embarrassing cos little kids could play better than us) but i think i prefer racquet sports where i can smack to my heart's content! xD after that was supposed to go boon lay relative's house but i last min pangseh-ed my ma to go watch anime. x.x watched till quite late then rode home on bicycle...very traumatizing experience which i'm not going to repeat in the near future. i had jelly legs for about an hour after i got off the bike. T.T
u know what? i just dun have the energy to care anymore.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
started spring cleaning the house on fri...then went out for piu session at cck. (izu pangseh me when she was the one who wanted to piu! D:). then early on sat morning met sis to collect clothes and she dragged me to go shopping at taka~x.x i used to like looking at toys but that day really traumatized me. TT after that was supposed to go cycling but it was raining so i ended up watching an anime called "special A". it's about an elite class and more specifically a guy and a girl always competing to be the top. (yeah it sounds simple but it's super~~~cute xD)
after that went to meet ce and kint at lot1. as usual they were late!! and i already walked so slow somemore cos it was raining. x.x even though we brought a big umbrella but in the end still got drenched...THEN I HAD TO WAIT IN FOR CE AND KINT SOMEMORE! -.- and the best thing is they walked right past me at the mrt station...x.x on sun had to do spring cleaning part 2 then were supposed to meet the piu gang again but they last min cancelled it so i went to watch quarantine.
the movie is damn scary lah! at first it was quite boring. but then...after the whole thing i was actually quite stunned. although the ending's expected but still...x.x then on mon we went to amk to piu (again). cant really remember much of what happened yesterday...at first i thought it was cos i've been too tired these few days but i realised it's cos i'm emo-ing. (win liao loh din even realise i was emo-ing. x.x)
sometimes the dreams feel so real that i dun want to wake up. and i remember last time my sis still suan me that she managed to get together with all the guys she liked. but dun worry i know i've said this many times before. i'll pretend as ifnothing happened and i'm not feeling what i'm feeling. but sometimes the feeling gets so strong that i cant bring myself to look at him. so...i'll do what i normally do. run and hide.
i may look okay on the surface but inside i'm really trying to control the longing. to quote from one of liang jing ru's songs: "如果能在一起那該有多好？“ and to celine: how can i make myself forget my feelings if u keep reminding me of him...-.- this really explains why i cant look into his eyes. cos i can hide my feelings through facial expressions, through actions etc, but i cant hide my eyes. my eyes cant lie...
你问在我心中 是否还苦恼
那次受伤 否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照 我一切都好
一个人 不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现 在眼角
那次流过的泪 让我学习到
如何祝福 如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到 与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要 是一种对照
爱虽然很美妙 却不能为了寂寞 又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到 对的人出现
能愿意为了一份爱 付出去多少
然后得到多少 并不计较
当我想清楚的时候 我就算已经准备好
放手去爱 海阔天高 oh~~ya~~
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到 对的人出现
爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现
Friday, December 5, 2008
this is now the 104th post (technically) and i haven wrote my 100th post yet. x.x anyway, was supposed to go for a trial run today. but suddenly realised cos i asked myself this question: "do i really really really want this?" this = the job at some learning centre for very young kids. firstly, the pay's really good (at least i think so lah), however, the hours are not so good. it's only on weekends so while it may be a good job to have while studying, it greatly limits my going-out time.
secondly, the job itself. most ppl may not know this, BUT I'M REALLY SCARED OF SMALL KIDS. T.T let me explain. i'm fine with children generally, as long as 1. they dun bug me 2. they dun cry 3. they dun hurt themselves. and ppl wonder why i like babies the most. that's cos they cant talk, walk or do anything! xD
but really loh, i asked myself this very crucial question: do i really want to be stuck inside an air-conditioned room surrounded by one whole room of 3-4 years-olds and actually have to be responsible for teaching and taking care of them. i really cant do it. it's different if i'm only supposed to play with them or take care of them or when i'm teaching kids i know, cos then i would be more...relaxed..?
was writing this and thinking when i suddenly thought of a term that i think suits me so i went to look it up in wiki : "The key to understanding commitmentphobia is recognizing that such behavior is rooted in fear -- fear of lost options or fear of making poor decisions. The commitmentphobic mind sees decisions as permanent, opening the possibility of being caged or trapped forever with no means of escape. Commitmentphobia is a real disabling fear, that can be manifest in many areas of life, including career, home ownership, or even shoe shopping. This fear can make simple every day decisions into a tremendous burden."--from wikipedia. but psych lecturers keep stressing not to make any diagnosis too easily so i shall remain politically correct. this is just a reference~
but this brings me to another point. i've realised that i'm always running away. no, saying this doesnt mean i would face all my worries face-on from now on, i'm just saying.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
for some reason alot of people are feeling emo now...it's time to upload some cute pics! been wanting to do this since the day we had ce's belated bday dinner okay. =x
if u all recall correctly...that day xin dar ordered something with a bun. this shall be the story of bunbun. xD my art really isnt very good though. =x
xin dar couldnt bear to eat bunbun while it was screaming (sound effects by urs truly) so she decided to cut it into half!! D:
okay i know that was super lame. -.-
Monday, December 1, 2008
somehow i knew this would happen when i saw this entry in ce's blog. here it goes~
Rules & Regulations
1) Each player of this game have to start off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who got tagged by this, needs to write the same too
.3) At the end of it, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4) No tag back!
1. i like to watch horror movies with my eyes covered (or at least half-covered) =x
2. i'm a hopeless romantic (ie i still believe in fairy tales but yet i'm also a cynic cos i doubt fairy tales happen to ordinary folks like me).
3. i love books. thus i especially like the smell in bookstores and libraries. (yeah i'm weird i know) x.x
4. i'm damn scared of falling in love.
5. uh...i love all round things. dun ask me why. TT
6. i wish to learn the piano and be more musically inclined.
7. small things can make me happy but they can make me emo too.
8. i love to be cuddled
9. i wanna polish up my jap and travel around the world (yet i'm scared of taking planes so i dun know how i'm going to get there)
10. my dream is to find a forest (or somewhere with no people), build a cottage and live there forever
who can i tag...x.x
1. sis (i know u're stalking me so dun pretend u din see this!)
2. salty (if u're not seeing this i would make sure u do =D)
3. HL
4. seewah
5. meiting (i know u're stalking me too!)
6. natania
7. (i cant think of any more people i can tag so i shall just be random) xiuhui
8. wen en
9. bro
10. random-passer-by A
