Friday, January 7, 2011
some things i've already said so many times that i dun feel like saying anymore...and anyway i get the feeling u're not interested in listening to what i have to say...my nightmares sound very mild and i may joke about them, but by telling u about them i'm actually trying to tell u my insecurities...
u know, i started eating pills knowing about the possible side effects, but what i din expect was u (who were the main reason i'm even eating them) laughing at my pimples, poking them even knowing they are painful. why do u have to do such things sometimes?
i know sometimes maybe my fears are unreasonable...but how about listening to me for once instead of just saying that i'm "jealous"? if i'm jealous, it's cos during term time, u spend more time with ur friends than me. u said friends 40% and gf 60%? i highly doubt so...
when sch starts, u have lessons with them...eat meals with them...go out and have fun with them...okay sure. projects time, u start spending even more time doing projects with them. exams time, u start spending ur time with them studying. so where do i come into the picture?
u know, my mum said before that when she was giving birth to my sis, her father-in-law asked my father (his son, her husband) to accompany her to the hospital. he refused but eventually went reluctantly, cos he wanted to go jalan jalan with his friends instead, while his wife is giving birth to their eldest child alone. i dun want that to happen to me...for my closest one to be with his friends or not even around when i need him.
i dun want to always be the last u know...maybe i'm being unreasonable, but cant u just reassure me and put up with me instead of brushing me off? i guess one should always learn to be independent...dun rely on ur close ones to console u, cos they are most likely to be the ones who made u down in the first place.
why do i feel so different from when we first started out? i was actually quite happy all along, until these little things started adding up...yeah u said u haven seen ur friends for very long...u realise it was just 1-2months at most? and u actually chatted while i was wondering what was taking u so long to collect some notes...yeah i know she's very good, helped u printed notes and even brought them to ur house...but to continue chatting like i din exist, while i was waiting?
if ur friends can get more attention and time from u, i think i would rather be ur friend. at least then i would be more important.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
since i haven really updated in so long, shall blog a list of interesting events for my own reference so that i wont forget...xD
5th june: met the forum ppl for the first time today and we went to the Hangout! wanted to book the biggest room but turned out it was already booked by celine and scandal dar they all for their l4d outing...x.x but nvm, everyone seemed quite nice! :D
8th june: watched furry vengence at lot1 with xw and ww...i thought we were watching marmaduke and i only realised we were supposed to watch furry vengence when we were going in hahaha...the movie wasnt very nice though...was expecting more cartoons rather than real-ppl... :x after that we went to ajisen for dinner (YAY my volcano~ xD)
11th june: went to play bball at sembawang with ww...he say cos the courts there got less ppl...but turned out his "less ppl" was actually quite alot of ppl! -.- so we ended up walking around...looking for less crowded courts...in the end we ended up somewhere near woodlands...and the reason why there wasnt so many ppl there was cos the court was very dusty! i dun know why...x.x
12th june: had a very fun time at sentosa with the forum ppl! haven been there in so long...first time putting on sunblock...SPF 130~! :D but it was really super hot from 2-4...even the sand was scorching hot! but had a fun time playing with the water and sand...attempts to play volleyball and other ball games except captain's ball was a failure in my opinion cos...too many of us din know how to play hahaha...
after a tired and sweaty day at sentosa we went to some hawker centre near vivo city to eat dinner...the prawn mee was very nice! then we went looking for places to sit and play games...played alot of stupid games and it was very fun to play in a group! xD
15th june: hands were feeling very itchy after not playing l4d for so long so i went to park lane to play l4d with xin, ww and sharn...had pepper lunch which they all said was smelly...D: but nvm i like jiu can liao! went to the new lan shop called volcano (haha seems like alot of things i like are called volcano! :x) overall the environment there not bad, just that same as other lan shops in park lane, u would start to smell cigarette smoke when certain inconsiderate ppl actually smoke right outside the lan shop...-.-
18th june: went to play squash at serangoon with ww...he wanted to bring my to chomp chomp but it was too crowded and we couldnt find any seats so we ended up eating at a nearby hawker centre...then had to travel quite long to the squash place and we lost our way cos we alighted at the wrong stop... :x that place was quite okay though, at least we saw other ppl playing...xD the uncle even asked me how come i live jurong but i come so far to play! x.x
19th june: went to meet the forum ppl for jubeat at iluma...wa all suddenly so addicted hahaha...but really hate going there on weekends loh, still have to wait for our turns! but had a really good time playing bball and air hockey...xD
22nd: not enough l4d the last time...so went to l4d again with ww, xin dar and terry at clementi~ those indecisive ppl couldnt decide where they wanted to eat dinner so we ended up eating at the cheese place at cityvibe...i felt that the curry chicken rice was okay though but for some reason the guys keep complaining next time dun eat that liao... :x
25th: happy day with toy story 3d at jurong point...went to eat my long-awaited claypot chicken noodles for dinner after the movie...why so small bowl~~the movie itself was not bad, perhaps cos i had no expectations since i din watch the first 2 movies..the 3d effects were not very obvious but still watched 3d cos someone never watch 3d before...like so suagu! :x
26th: went to ww's house to play resident evil and see the hamsters...supposed to be play resident evil lah, but in the end i had more fun playing street fighter...the resident evil is so nice when playing on ps3 cos i kept forgetting what buttons to press~if using pc i confirm wont die at first stage loh hahaha
2nd july: went all the way to boon keng to play squash (cos there are no squash courts near jurong! -.-) it was raining and luckily i brought an umbrella...but i still ended up half wet cos somebody not pro at holding umbrella...then we travelled all the way to old turf city to eat the chong pang steamboat mentioned in the last post...did i mention that it was freezing cold the whole day cos it was raining!
3rd july: went ww's house again to watch the korean drama Full House and cooked spaghetti...it was the first time i had spaghetti with bacon, sausages and luncheon meat! omg by the time cook finish already starve to death liao haha...but nvm since i was just the assistant nia and not the head chef...i think i forgot how come we started watching Full House, but the starting was quite boring...their voices all sounded super weird...after that we went to amk to watch eclipse, the movie itself was abit disappointed cos it felt like there wasnt alot of actions leh..like the book had alot of details and seemed very happening, yet in the movie it seemed like everything just sort of...flew past? x.x hope the last one would be better...
6th july: went to amk again to watch 9temples, it talked alot about karma and stuff...abit confusing though so perhaps it wasnt so nice for a horror movie... =/ there's really nothing to do at amk hub! no nice food to try...
9th july: saw celine's yummy porridge pic on her fb so i asked her where was it...then she and cyrius offered to take us there...their you tiao is also very nice and super cripsy! yum yum...ate till very full but since it was half water so got hungry very fast...oh yeah we din know what to do after eating so we went l4d (yeah again...). after playing i felt a bit hungry but i din say anything cos i thought i was the only one...but then cyrius suggested going to eat! YAY~ see, normal ppl digest very fast one...u all then are the weird ones loh...both say dun want eat..in the end both end up cant resist the temptation muahahaha!
went to eat supper at some place near orchard (which is also near ohsho, the jap place which i like to go...) the chicken rice was really delicious...haven tried chicken rice with rice that are not just plain white rice...then we all very nice went to pei ww wait for his bus before we take taxi home..in the end waited for more than 30mins till 130am the bus still not here! after we left he still dare to say the bus came right after we left...that's so ungrateful! :x
10th july: went for klunch at clementi kbox, conclusion is that the food for klunch is much better than other timeslots...their chicken rice was so yummy that i started thinking why there wasnt more rice...after that went to meet the forum ppl at jurong point again to watch despicable me, haven had a group outing for so long! really wanted to go eat the claypot again, but ended up eating swenson's omelette...the movie was very funny, i would suggest u all to go watch it too... :D
13th july: finally managed to get a buyer for lappie with ww's help...just when i was wondering when i can get rid of it! x.x then we went to clarke quay to look for my jap maggi mee which i had a craving for...but unfortunately couldnt find the ones i was looking for...went to try out some ramen shop also, cost $60+ for 2 ppl...in my opinion i felt that it was abit too ex, can get the same things which taste better at half the price at ohsho! :x
14th july: went to ww's house to continue watching Full House...not even halfway through~still got two-thirds more...din intend to eat ajisen actually, but i fell asleep when watching and then i woke up with a craving for ajisen...so we went to eat before i went to work...this was the lian qing qing day...LOL :x
15th july: met ww for dinner...had some time before that so we went bukit panjang plaza to walk walk first...meanwhile i saw mac's poster! the spicy nuggets are back! muahaha i have been waiting for them for so long..wo deng ni men hao jiu le...lai come come let me eat! xD then we went back to jurong...recommended ww to the fishball mee which i always eat, but i feel that it tastes better when u eat from the box hahaha...
16th july: was very sian that i had to work on fri night..but luckily cathay got this promotion, buy one ticket get one free when watching movies 1-9am at orchard cineleisure...so went home after work, then chiong to orchard to eat supper at mac (woohoo spicy nuggets AGAIN) then watch movie...the blood pledge was...as the reviews said, predictable, but doesnt mean that i din get scared hahaha...after that reached home at around 4+am even though i had to wake up at 7am the next day to help out...nvm cos i was planning to sleep after i reach home all the way till i have to wake up to meet ww...
17th july: but in the end my ma last min dragged me to go play mj with my aunts! but nvm since we played 20-40 cents and i ended up winning $40++... $_$ then chiong back to meet ww go da bao dinner and meet celine and cyrius for mj again...played till i was really falling asleep haha...wanted to at least finish watching guess guess guess but couldnt keep my eyes open...
18th july: was dying in the office and starving to death but din have appetite to eat...then suddenly ww showed up with fishball mee hahaha...thanks ah i was very touched... xD
Friday, July 2, 2010
i really planned to blog about my birthday celebrations... :x but since the pics have been up on facebook for so long, i guess u all can guess how i celebrated it right~? xD for zigang celebration please proceed to www.facebook.com... :D
the zi gang came over to the office (again) on tue cos i was working and we had to pass izu her birthday present...i din get to watch them give it to her cos i was teaching! x.x
i should really resume blogging regularly...went to Chong Pang BBQ steamboat place today, it was originally at Boon Keng but it moved to Turf City 2 years ago...and apparently it's going to shift again soon in August~ just when i thought i finally "found" it again...x.x
some similarities from the last time i tried (i think it was 3-4 years ago...):
-still a wide variety of cooked/raw food
-still the same kind of pot
-the oil still splatters like mad when u grill food...
and some differences...:
-somehow not as crowded as i remember...and on friday night dinnertime somemore! :x
-dun know why they only have chicken soup base...u have to pay extra $1 for tom yam soup paste! (yeah not even the SOUP, it's the PASTE...x.x)
my friends would know i like sausages and luncheon meat like i'm obsessed with them...but that place dun have luncheon meat!! D: nvm i shall take my revenge enjoy myself with the sausages! xD
only ate their mee goreng (quite nice, not too dry and not too oily), fried rice (very nice, just that i wish the peas/corns/carrots would disappear) and their...bee hoon which somebody took but only ate one mouth and stopped after declaring that it's very nan chi...-.-
fries, sausages (yum yum!), black pepper chicken, spicy chicken and BBQ sauce chicken...the spicy chicken met the same fate as the bee hoon, while i personally liked the BBQ chicken...xD the chicken soup is quite nice though, but it eventually became veggie soup too HAHAHAHA... :x
giving the bu shuang look while cooking sausages...(okok i would cook my own sausages! dun need look like i forced u to cook! x.x)
eventually...i got so sick of eating sausages...and someone still had the audacity to say usually his friends cook for him but eat with me still have to cook!! okay nvm i cook...just dun complain when u have diarrhea the next day! :x
*hehheh i've done my duty and updated my blog...xD
Monday, April 5, 2010
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there..
If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there ..... for me ...
Thursday, March 18, 2010
for those who haven watched kaiji yet but are intending to, spoilers ahead! x.x
i was expecting it to be the story of a gambler, winning money in the casino or something in all the different types of games. but it turned out to be entirely different. it was only at the end of the movie that i realised the main point of the show was on japan's credit card debts.
kaiji was scammed into boarding a ship, a place where he was told he can change his life if he won. to be frank, i din expect him to be cheated by the other guy (cant even remember his name LOL) but that just shows how naive i was. good for him that in the end he found the other simple guy who cooperated with him. unfortunately for both of them, the other guy had one more card left which he overlooked and sadly this was to be a major turning point in both their lives.
to us, the audience, everything underground looked so clear. we wonder why the characters inside dun see it the same way we do. but try putting ourselves in the same postion, and i'm not sure that we wont do the same too. no wonder it was called the brave men's road cos it really required courage.
it required massive amount of luck and courage to finish walking across that bridge. a line in the movie really touched me "he fell down silently, (his name, i forgot), the coward, actually fell down without making a sound. he fell down without making a sound so that i wont panick". another guy, sahara-san. that one was just pure unlucky...and partly fate too that he wont make it. he finished walking across, only to fail at the last part...
i really wonder how he can still remain so calm after seeing 9 of his friends fall down one by one. the ways ppl always try to screw one another over...tells u alot about human nature. but then, there are also unexpected pleasant twists that make u think "hm, maybe we shouldnt end in 2012".
the final E-card game was exciting, though i was wondering all the while how he was going to make a come-back until the last round. it was so obvious that he did not change the cards, but only wanted to make the bad guy think so. do u seriously think he would have let u seen it if he really intended to swop the cards? =/ anyway, the one with the simple mind would win simply cos he did not bother to scheme and plot the other's downfall.
personally feel that the ending was lousy though, even though it fits in with the entire theme. HOW CAN THAT WOMAN DO THAT!! no wonder she's still single at 39 HAHAHA. :x
all in all, not what i expected but definitely not as bad as some of the reviews made it sound. xDDDD
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
u think reading someone's private msn chat logs is funny? someone who trusted u enough to let u use her laptop without "supervising" u? perhaps that was my mistake, trusting someone i dun know well too much. dun worry, it wont happen again.
and to think i thought it was over, i din realise the extent to which u read. everyone's and everything isnt it? using whatever u saw as evidence for some crime i supposedly commited? even if i did, what right do u have to condemn me? and mind u, they were meant to be PRIVATE chatlogs. not that u understand the meaning of that word anyway. for u, anything about u is private. anything other than that, others' privacy, all are not private.
this would be the last time i ever trusted someone blindly.
Monday, March 8, 2010
clarified some of my doubts with the owner already (if u dun know what i'm talking about refer to the previous post) and he said that there's a package that includes meal/dessert/popcorn/drinks and console/board games! meaning that u can switch between playing console games and board games. it's $19 per person for 2 hours of gaming, includes 1 main course, free flow of drinks and popcorn, and also dessert! xD extension would be at $4.50 per hour per person, do let me know how many of u would be free on that day so that i can make reservations for the vip room okay! :D (if u think it's too ex then u can take the other packages which do not include meal, or which only allows u console or board gaming xD)
